An Ennui Holiday Break.

Exam's over, School's over

My life's over. Ok, not really now, but soon.

I haven't pick up my mum's call for a week.

That's a hell sign. :/ I think she missed call almost a hundred times this week.

And I never pick up. You can imagine me picking up that terrifying phone call.

When all she does is yelling in agony questioning me.

The only reason is (i'm scared) of her phone calls

She's such an obnoxious mother. Seriously.

I don't even want to hear her squeaky voice because it's freaking irritating me

All she ever say is want me to be in Austria. like right away.

Who do you think i am?? Superwoman that can fly??

But that's not the complication. The problem is I DON'T even wanna go.

It's like a phobia. In my mind right now is I will never go Austria again.

Literary, not in a million years. Maybe I'll consider when pigs can fly.

I just feel like screaming and shouting at the top of my lungs. AT HER.

I feel like i'm her puppet. No, maybe her dog. When she says sit, I never dare to stand.

So, maybe this time, i'll stand firm against her.

Regardless how, i'm gonna lose a horrible mother (which i will celebrate)

and she's gonna lose her useless stupid daughter

My wish this year is to not be related to "her" AT ALL.

I don't want to see her face, please.

Ok. I'm sorry for being emotional everytime i talk about my mother.

This just becomes a habit. A very DESTRUCTIVE habit.

I mean, she's not even worth it.

You'll never know unless you're in my shoes.

About my life?

I started working in Valentino Rudy which is in Mid Valley.

It's an Italian brand. A boutique for men and women. Not our age.

All of the colleagues are friendly except for one.

The boss's daughter. A pretty chinese girl.

She's a tit bit bossy and not to say, HARSH.

Just got upbraided from her today.

She ask if i was crazy. The answer was quite obvious.

haha. I thought if i was, i won't even won't even stand a chance to wear their uniform and stand in front of her.

She always put on a furious face, when she's actually pretty

Kind of a waste right??

oh yeah. I got a cut on my knee too, today. It was bleeding.

At that time, there were many customers, i was in the storeroom getting the shoes and clothes

So I rushed out immediately and that's when i got that cut. :S

That's practically it. Having noon shift tomorrow. from 1 till 10

I normally wait for time to elapse. Trust me, you'll stare at your watch every 5 minutes.

I'll update soon. :) For now, i'm signing off. so buh bye!

Happy Week :)

Yay!!! Final's are over.

And here comes the holiday!!! one week. wooohoo!! :D

so, yesterday, I went 1U with my best friends

and guess what? we met Danish :p

haha. awkward moment :/

then we had lunch in Sushi Zanmai

yummy sushi!!!

and we caught up with 2 new movies

Real Steel and The 3 Musketeers

I loveee Real Steel !! Such a great movie

moreover, that small dude was cute :)

shopped for an hour after Real Steel.

then got on with our next movie.

after movies, I went KARAOKE with shakey xD

ahaaha from 11 until 3 in the morning :/

now we most probably have sore throats :p

but we had fun!!

well, my exams turn out to be okay....

average i guess. :]

anyway, i've tried my best and i'm done.

so, just let it be.

p.s : sorry for being stubborn haha.

Everybody Hurts.

What is your problem??

So what if I'm fast??

You have your part & I have my part to do.

Can you just cut it out??

You don't have to go urging against me okay.

Why do you fear to lose so much??

Out of so many people why me??

Actually, no. not me only, it's basically everyone.

I really don't get you.

Do you wanna win so badly??

You're already good enough.

If i were you, i'll be satisfied.

p.s: stop being a blockhead and think of how others feel too.

Really Tired.

First of all, Finals are next Tuesday.

i'm struggling here. really.

i don't have the confidence because it's my first exam after all

i'll try my very best though.

Secondly, i'm really tired of this drama

tired of entertaining.

tired of pleasing.

tired of approaching.

tired of putting a smile on my face.

that habit is coming back

and it's worse!

to be honest, you should just realise how irritating it is

don't have to abuse your stuff, it's written all over your face

seriously getting too emotional.

i was trying my best but all you do is drive me away.

so there's nothing i can do about it.

just stop it. you're gonna lose all you have in the end.

dear princess, please be rational and think.

moreover i'm not stubborn and naive, when i put it that way, it's that way

there's no other way. what else do you know? HAHA

p.s: you should encourage me, not urge against me.