i get angry when you guys joke about him or whatever
but now i feel so lost
i didn't said that you scolded me
it just made me feel like you are shooing me away
the way you talk.
& the faces you gave me.
i only asked you twice not Many times
& i didn't said that you lied
so why do you want me to ask them whether you went for training?
i am more annoyed being the one asking every time & always get rejected
then after you said you didn't want to go & asked me to go myself
i went la! so what's the problem now?
did i reacted wrongly?
or should i stay there like an idiot trying to force myself to face the fact that what you said wasn't true?
both you & i know who was being left out the most
we did nothing but hide
and i'm very sorry what i did was oh and ah when you talk to me about jason
because i'm not as good as shakey or jazelle to give you advices
you also said that you are very happy when you're with shakey and jazelle
and let them become your best friends till the end of your day
it means excluding me inside, u find it happier
now i know what to do.
i should just stop all this crap shit & say
"I WASN'T LEFT OUT!"
maybe all of you will feel better after i said that
I JUST WANT TO LIVE THE REST OF THIS YEAR IN CEMPAKA HAPPILY!
I'M WRONG & STUPID ENOUGH TO NOT KNOW THAT I'M A BURDEN TO ALL OF YOU
I AM SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OKAY?????
p.s: I want a new beginning!
nicole, :(
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